A quiet Saturday morning, and I am committed to doing more with it than sitting in front of a screen, but there is a prayer lately that has stuck with me. It came from this blog, and even though his story right now is not really mine, it has caught my attention all the same. I do love a good healing, after all. Anyway, he posted this prayer recently, and again, though it isn't exactly my story right now, something about it resonated. The image of resting in the wind of God's love, of letting go and trusting - certainly that is the calling for us in this place and time. Maybe every place and time, though there seem to be some moments when it's more apparent. We're living in one of those now.
Wow I'm wordy this morning. Enough - the prayer. Written by Howard Thurman.
My ego is like a fortress
I have built its walls stone by stone
To hold out the invasion of the love of God.
But I have stayed here long enough. There is light
Over the barriers. O my God–
The darkness of my house forgive
And overtake my soul.
I relax the barriers.
I abandon all that I think I am,
All that I hope to be,
All that I believe I possess.
I let go of the past,
I withdraw my grasping hand from the future,
And in the great silence of this moment,
I alertly rest my soul.
As the sea gull lays in the wind current,
So I lay myself into the spirit of God.
My dearest human relationships,
My most precious dreams,
I surrender to His care.
All that I have called my own
I give back. All my favorite things
Which I would withhold in my storehouse
From his fearful tyranny,
I let go.
I give myself
Unto Thee, O my God. Amen.
- Howard Thurman