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Silas is allergic to everything. Every food so far, except sweet potatoes and cereal, so we have backed way off and are going to introduce foods much more slowly. You can try two new foods a week, but I'm thinking more like one every few weeks, so that his body has time to completely recover if he has a reaction.
We're on day two of Asher taking a nap without a pacifier. Both days he has fallen asleep, though it has taken him about two hours both times. That's okay. My expectations were low - I was assuming he would not sleep at all, so some sleep is better than no sleep. Also, he is not wailing the entire two hours - mostly he's playing in his bed - so it's been more pleasant than I expected. My goal is to throw away the paci on his birthday, and I really think we'll be able to do that without a battle. The battle is happening now. He still gets it at bedtime (thank you Jamie for the great advice on weaning), so we're still sleeping at night, which gives me more patience at naptime. Nobody takes a paci to their wedding day, so eventually we were going to have to do this. I've chosen to do it now.
Lately I've been thinking about working at home versus working at a job, and how much I miss one when I'm doing the other. My time at home with babies isn't over, but because so many of my friends are going back to work right now (and really enjoying it), it has been on my mind.
Also, birth control. Where's Mary? I can't have a conversation about birth control without Mary. Several of my friends are Catholic and use natural family planning, so the birth control conversation keeps coming up. We had Silas based on natural family planning (and obviously out of God's sovereignty, but God's sovereignty and my inability to predict my cycle shook hands somewhere along the way). And while I recognize birth control as only my vote, not the final say-so, at this moment I need the perceived certainty it provides. So I have been on birth control pills, but have switched kinds (starting today) for a number of reasons I won't list here. In general, in this part of my life I need to hear from God. I don't feel any real peace or clarity about any of it, and I need some. I am not ambivalent about using contraception, I'm just not settled on what direction our family is going. I don't know how to describe it better. Maybe that's too much information for someone from high school who googles me to know, but there it is all the same.
Desperately need to go to the grocery store, by the way. As in, there are no more protein sources left in my house, and the only fruit that remains is frozen or dried.
That's it. My life, abridged. I keep thinking I'm going to write about real things, but the real things on my mind are more personal than philosophical - staying home and birthing babies is about as personal as it gets for a woman of child-bearing age - and it seems I just couldn't move forward until I said them. So maybe now that I've said them all at once, I can talk about something more interesting.