I'm aware today of how much we all play off of each other in my house, how cheerfulness begats cheerfulness and whining begats whining. If you feel so inclined, please say a prayer that I will not channel all of my whatever you call this, the equal parts miserable and exciting condition of being nine months pregnant, into exasperation at the little hands that are forever reaching up for me. He isn't wrong for needing his mom. It's not his problem that I am BIG and HOT and IRRITABLE, and I don't want to respond to him as though it is. But this afternoon I did, and my attitude created uncertainty for him, which lead to him whining and wanting to be held, which lead to more whining from me. Alas.
But I am the grown-up, he is the kid, I have the ability to make tomorrow more pleasant for us both, and with a little grace from God and my family, I will. Otherwise, we're staring down a long summer, friends.
May tomorrow be better than today. Amen.
5 comments:
*pat on the back* don't be so hard on yourself. I sort of know what you are going through... yesterday, Nick and I had to trade vehicles and I had just showered and wore jeans for some crazy reason and was driving to the hospital and noticed his gas gauge on E and I got so irritated... I actually texted him "you are on E and it is TOO hot to stop and get gas" OK so that has nothing to do with your situation except we agree it is hot. ;)
I am praying for you!! I so remember being pregnant during I think the hottest summer EVER...with twins! They were born at the end of Sept...and I could not have be HAPPIER!
I will pray for you and that little handsome man of yours...
I have a baby gift for you..sorry I couldnt make it to the shower..with 4 little girls its nuts around here!
i relate to this more than i would like to admit to most people. =) miss you so much friend!! i will write soon with our updates. =)
bless your heart! hold on momma.. its almost over.. well the BIG part anyway, can't say much for the HOT!!!! Being nine months pregnant you have EVERY right to be irritable! God bless you! Oh and to comment on your dream....hmmm... pregnancy + African heat waves = crazy dreams! I love it!
Isn't it so true that we as mamas set the mood in our homes? Wow. It's a good reminder to me to try a little harder in my own attitude. Hang in there...you're almost there!
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