confessions

1. I haven't cried since Granny died. This strikes me as odd - so odd - considering a. I'm pregnant, and b. Granny was an important part of my life. She was my surrogate grandmother after my own passed away. I have no idea why I've been so pragmatic, except that I just haven't taken the time to process it yet. Every time I walk in the door at my in-laws', I'm a little surprised Granny isn't sitting at the kitchen table. She had a birthday gift picked out for Asher before she died. I opened it Wednesday - a winter coat with a cute little outfit - completely dry-eyed. Go figure.

2. My mother-in-law and I made Christmas candy tonight. It's a tradition. When I met Brian's family, they had a tradition around E-V-E-R-Y thing, whereas my family has very few traditions. Over time I have taken on most of their traditions as my own, and Brian has come to love the freedom of my family's approach. We've traded places. So we made candy tonight, and Monday we're making lefse, the traditional Norwegian bread that is complicated, time consuming, and so very high in calories.

3. You gave some great book recommendations, but I haven't had the opportunity to go by the library yet. Maybe next year.

4. I haven't vaccuumed all week. I live on hardwood floors with a big dog and a baby. I really could vaccuum every day, but I usually work towards every third day. It's been seven. Step carefully.

5. Asher is learning new things every day. Today he started imitating "la la la" and "bye-bye." Except bye-bye has an unusual pattern that I cannot begin to type correctly, that makes it a superfun game for him. We all make our own decisions, and my decision has no implication for anyone else's, but I couldn't be happier that I decided to be at home with babies. It would break my heart for someone else to tell me what new tricks he learned today.

6. I'm entering the "is she fat or is she pregnant?" phase of pregnancy. Good times.