first: I don't think I always believed in ministry as a calling. Before you throw your tomatoes, this is what I mean: I always thought that church ministry, like teaching or engineering, is a matter of doing something that you love and are good at. I don't think I thought specific people were "marked" or "called" into ministry. But God is changing my mind, because of how things have unfolded in the job search for Brian. I have a hard time with the concept of God's specific will for individuals - how does that work with free will? My mind cannot put the two together in any sort of coherent way - yet God keeps disproving my personal theology. So. That's that. Maybe we are called to specific things at specific times. Maybe it is more than God just blessing what we decide. Who knows - but it seems clear to me now (though I'm not sure it ever had before) that God has something specific in mind about where we're headed.
ANYWAY, we're like, this close to knowing more about our future. And I'm so ready for that! We've known for a few weeks now that wherever we live in mid-July will be where we live when we have this baby, so we're anxious for something to work out in Nashville NOW.
Anxious, but not hysterical. Not this week, anyway. Hysteria is like allergies - they come and go, depending on the day, but you're not completely rid of them until the season is over.
second: Since several have asked, I'll give a pregnancy update. I'm 12 weeks pregnant now. At 12 weeks, the baby is the size of an apple. It has taste buds and fingernails and can digest food, and that completely blows my mind. This little person did not EXIST in January, and now it has taste buds. Go figure. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, and they should be able to hear the heartbeat then. We're still working on names. That's all I've got for now.
third: I don't think I'm overstepping my bounds if I say that, if you are the praying type, now would be a good time to pray for Janet at BUF. That's all.
fourth: My mom got a new computer! So I'm now able to carry on with regular blogging activities at home. Yay.
fifth: Nick asked if Scooter was still alive. She is. She's working a lot at a job that she likes, so she's just not spending as much time perusing the internet as she used to. But she's still kicking, and will be over for roast and potatoes at approximately 6 pm this evening. The Hawkins (Allison's in-laws, and they feel like mine, too) stayed here last weekend, and that was great fun. The Hawkins are a sweet family.
Over and out.